Un-attractive with Homemade Nut Butter

So I've been feeling really ugly lately. It all started back in July when I first changed my hair color. I brought the picture to the hairdresser (who came highly recommended) but he gave me an entirely different hair cut and color than what I wanted. I tried to like my new style but it never suited me. Since then it's been one bad color after another. Also, I noticed wrinkles around my eyes a couple weeks ago when I was looking at some recent photos taken of me while in Germany. Gasp! Wrinkles!? I'm only 27. Then I've been super pasty white all year, no glowy tan, just stark white. O ya, I'm also in that "mom rut" of wearing comfy shoes and clothes. I want to look hot again! I know we all go through these emotions, but mine have lasted awhile. That's why I'm pledging to myself to get a new hairdo, spray tan, pedicure, and eyelash extensions. Nothing like a great make over. Before and after pics anyone? Its all going down the end of April (another blog post to explain this date to come soon). Besides that, I did manage to come up with a new recipe. It's my own home nut butter. 2 cups walnuts. 2 scoops vanilla protein powder. 2 tbs coconut oil. 2 tbs water (this depends on your protein powder). Place the walnuts in a food processor and process for 5 minutes. Add the protein powder for one minute. Then slowly drizzle in the coconut oil, and then the water. You'll have to stop the food processor periodically to scrape the sides and re-incorporate the ingredients. I spread it on two rice cakes. ;)